I first started to study Buddhism my senior year in high school after realizing that I didn’t really agree or feel a connection with my present religion. I found Buddhism after looking at a number of different religions and it seemed that I was drawn to it almost instantly. I find the religion to be one that contains a multitude of lessons to be learned. The idea that suffering is caused by attachment made sense to me almost immediately. Just the core idea that nothing is permanent and in order to be happy one must realize that nothing is permanent just makes sense. When we look around at all the things we have or want we fail to realize that the joy or pleasure from these things is gone once the novelty has worn off, and we are left with nothing other than material possessions. Furthermore, these materials serve no other purpose than to clutter our lives, and leave us wanting more things to fill the void left by the previous object. Learning about the ideas behind attachment and suffering has led me to make my own opinions. Personally, the idea of money is completely disgusting. I cannot stress enough how much disdain I have for people that go out and spend their money on frivolous things just to say that they have them. I am however not completely without fault in this matter. There have been times that I’ve gone out and bought something that I believed to be essential and the best new thing, however after buying it, I find myself thinking that I could have used that money for something else that I really needed like rent or groceries. It is strange that I often find myself conflicting with my own beliefs about money. I hate how it makes people act, yet at the same time, money has become such an integral part of our society, I find myself trying to make more money just to survive, and keep up with society. This experience has brought me to a point in my life where I have a desire to attempt to live a minimalist lifestyle where I have only the things essential to live, and I rid my life of all the clutter I have accumulated in my 20 years.
I also wanted to comment on the subject of Taoism in this chapter. My study of Buddhism has led me to a number of different sources of information Taoism only being one of them. Like Buddhism, I instantly connected with the idea of Yin and Yang. The idea that everything is connected and dependent upon each other makes perfect sense. You cannot have love without hate, light without dark, or male without female. Life is a constant balance and it has to be. You can never know one thing without something to compare it too. For instance, we could never tell what love was, if we first didn’t experience hate, or vice versa. I was also led to a branch of Buddhism called Zen. Besides its apparent laid back style, a main concept in Zen Buddhism is to question anything and everything. This teaching has given me the ability to get to the core essence of things instead of just taking things for face value or accepting things blindly.
Signing Out
Brian